Does it exist?

When i was rummaging through my dvd collection, i discovered Moulin Rouge. so, i spent a couple of hours singing and crying.

anyway, i found myself wondering if i will ever experience a kind of love that will make me write beautiful songs, stories and poetry… that will make me feel that i am the luckiest girl in the world….

*sigh*

i guess for some people, that kind of love does exist. if not, then i will never get to sing and cry again at the same time.

*ja*

Finishing What I Started

has it been 9 years since I left college? it seems like it was just yesterday.

of course, i have to remember that my son is already turning six this year. ah! how time flies, ne?

for those of you who do not know, i dropped out of school with 18 units left because i got pissed with an instructor for giving me a failing grade despite passing the exams. the reason was due to excessive absences. what irritated me the most was that she did not consider giving me an INC or even a 4 to make up for the absences. and since i was working already, i did not see the need to go on.

but for the last couple of years, i have been spending approximately two weeks each year thinking about going back to school. last 2005, i went as far as going to UPLB (University of the Pilippines at Los Banos) to inquire. but during this time, it was really impossible for me. family, work, etc.

last month, i finally thought it was possible for me to go back to school. things have certainly fallen into place.

but again, i guess it was not yet the right time for i was late in processing my papers. i could have enrolled this semester but it took three weeks for my re-instatement papers to be reviewed. in the end, i was asked to go see the University Chancellor for an interview. i honestly wondered what more he could ask me that was not in my Letter of Appeal. a promise that i will be a good student ?

anyway, i finally decided to enroll next semester since classes have already started and i don’t want to miss the first week. i want to be completely prepared so i can concentrate on my subjects.

for the time being, i will concentrate on establishing a work routine that will allow me to accommodate my classes. of course, i should make sure that i will earn enough money to cover my school expenses.

ah ~ i was relly looking forward to going back to school this semester. i even bought notebooks and a pencil case. yes, i was excited. so, sue me.

i sincerely think that the reason for doing this does not only involve me having a degree but more of finishing what i started.

you see, i am the type of person that gets bored and distracted easily. i believe that if i finish my course, i will finally feel motivated and ‘driven’.

honestly — so many personal issues, so little time!

*mata ne*