things to be thankful for…

first post for this blog.

i am excited and wary about certain things in my life right now. they say change is inevitable. and i guess i have been resisting these changes all these times. i do not know if it is from lack of courage or fear of the unknown that is making me falter.

but no one said that life is easy, even the most privileged of people experience difficulties and hardships.

it has been almost six months since i sort of “ran away” from who i was. until now, i have been unsteady on my feet.

i think that all my mistakes in the past is finally catching up with me. i have so many regrets that i could no longer recall the things that i have done right.

ah! but i know there is time. somehow it is comforting that i get to hide behind this blog. in some way, it will help me re-discover who i really am and also, find my way so that i can complete my life’s journey.

and so, i should probably begin with the things i should be thankful for.

1. Family – of course, i would not be here if it was not for my family. despite a relatively “abnormal” childhood, i am quite thankful especially since i have experienced much and learned much about life. my mom is someone i will always look up to. although, there are times that we do not see eye to eye over some things, i will always be grateful for her unselfish ways.

as for my husband, i can only say that i am very much blessed for having someone who truly loves me despite all my bad moods and crankiness. we have been married for almost six years now and have really grown to trust and love each other — not only as a married couple but also as friends.

of course, my source of strength is my son. he remains to be the most remarkable person i have ever met. i heard somewhere that in order to be successful in life, you must live for another person. and there is no one else in this world i want to live for except my beautiful boy.

2. Health – although i am a bit hypochondriac, i am glad to be in good health. i recently joined an aerobics class and already lost about 2.5 kilos — yey! I am down to 50k but i still want to lose 2 more kilos. still having issues with mys skin though. oh well, one at a time! LOL

3. Friends – ah! without my true friends i would not have survived for this long. they have seen me at my worst and have supported me at my weakest. i am not only talking about my college buddies but also my high school friends as well. even with the distance between us and busy schedules, we remain to be close and loyal to one another.

4. Work – as of today, i have not found my true calling. sure, i love to write but i can not imagine myself writing until i die. i have actually tried out different careers in the past ten years — indexer, life insurance agent, recruitment consultant and manager. i have even put up small businesses that involved selling bedsheets/comforter, home appliances and even writing services. to date, i am a freelance writer who is, sad to say, always behind on her deadlines. BUT starting tomorrow, i will work harder. i have to make sure that i have establish a new work schedule that will allow me to finish my studies (this is another post! ) anyway, i am thankful that i have found a source of income that allows me to stay at home.

5. Technology! – i live in a small community where everyone is busy and working during the day. because i work at home, i seldom see other people. this is actually still frustrating but thanks to unlimited internet service (SmartBro) for only PhP999 each month, i get to keep in touch and be updated with the rest of the world. well, it can be expected that my social skills are becoming rusty (laugh) but then again, i can not have everything (for now!)

okay. so these are the things/people i am thankful for. it has been a good exercise for my mind and heart but i have yet to face the things i regret.

i know, one should never dwell in the past. but without owning up to these mistakes, i could never change things!

see you tomorrow!

*sharonia*